God's Lavish Love
This piece was written in May 2021 to be published during the same month.
Enjoy <3
As I approach 33 years on the planet, I am at a loss for words. My therapist (who has become a beautiful fixture in my life) describes God’s presence in my life as “lavish .”The first time she said it, I was taken aback, but it seemed appropriate. I had never thought about it that way. The amount of detail that God has put into displaying his goodness makes his presence undeniable for me. Even when it seems less than ideal
I booked my dream trip to NZ to celebrate my birthday and canceled it. I’ve been waiting about 12 years to finally go on the trip. I cried and am working through my disappointment, but it’s highlighted and brought duality to my attention. While my sadness remains, I am also delighted. I’m very grateful and very disappointed.
I am looking forward to my new birthday plans and dreading figuring out when I’ll eventually get to go to New Zealand.
This is also what I’ve learned is my “Jesus Year .”I don’t know if there are any theologically sound parallels and significance, but It seems like a magical idea, right? I’ve decided that I’m going to celebrate this entire 33rd year by embracing God’s lush love and provision in my life. Say it slowly with your eyes closed like you’re eating a piece of chocolate or your favorite fried item. Lush Love.
Think about the very complex ways God has kept you during turmoil and chaos. For example, I walked to a local coffee shop to write this for you and planned on going out to Riverside Park in Manhattan after finishing my flat white and breakfast sandwich. Sis, while I was sitting here, it started raining. Chile, I would have been a mile away from my apartment without an umbrella. I’m grateful I got a Holy Spirit nudge to simply enjoy the coffee shop and not rush. Even these tiny moments are building up to a greater revelation of his love for you and I. Relish in it like your rolling in fields of beautiful, robust flowers and grass (without the itchy side effects).
Happy birthday to me and a very happy unbirthday to you, my friend. You are loved, and every day is a moment to celebrate.
Jazzy ;-)